D==> Nobody would cry if I was gone…

D==> After all these sweeps… I still have abso100tely no motivation to live.

D==> There is nobody to give me a purpose for it.

D==> I’m so sick and tired of this…

((just unfollowed and refollowed few people to let you guys know im back :c

although i dont know who to pester lmao))

((btw one of the reasons why i was on hiatus is that because my muse just works bad on me.

i have mpd and it makes roleplaying worse because when my characters grows on me he becomes a part of me. i can hear his thoughts, his crying, his helplessness… and start crying with him. i stop doing whatever i usually do. and cry. just like marcy always cries.

you probably dont know but outside tumblr marcy is a self harmer. it was just a part of his character on rps outside tumblr, but it got out of control like everything. i subconsciously made him a black and white blog and starting posting there his thoughts and begging for relief, stuff like that… i even started scratching my own arm because of that, what’s definitely not cool. so i decided to just anbandon roleplaying him and seek some therapy. i do realize that this stuff is pretty uncool and makes no sense but it actually happens. 

sorry if any of you were worried about me, im here. for now anyway, i lost interest in homestuck i must say, but welp… he is still a part of me, what can i say. [im roleplaying league of legends with my gf now]))

D==> Does anybody want to ask me things?

D==> I’m back.

D==> And not happy about it.

D==> Psh. 

((i fUCKIN KNEW BROWSING TUMBLR AND ESPECIALLY MY RP ACCOUNT WAS THE MOST TERRIBLE FUCKING IDEA EVER

ESPECIALLY AT SCHOOL

hope nobody saw oh my god

i dont always browse tumblr at school but when i do its involving equius and genitalia))

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((tbh its just like the weaboo phase. we all hate weaboos, but… when we were weaboos, wasnt it the most cheerful part of our life? 

i miss these days when i could laugh at every stupid thing.))

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