((btw one of the reasons why i was on hiatus is that because my muse just works bad on me.
i have mpd and it makes roleplaying worse because when my characters grows on me he becomes a part of me. i can hear his thoughts, his crying, his helplessness… and start crying with him. i stop doing whatever i usually do. and cry. just like marcy always cries.
you probably dont know but outside tumblr marcy is a self harmer. it was just a part of his character on rps outside tumblr, but it got out of control like everything. i subconsciously made him a black and white blog and starting posting there his thoughts and begging for relief, stuff like that… i even started scratching my own arm because of that, what’s definitely not cool. so i decided to just anbandon roleplaying him and seek some therapy. i do realize that this stuff is pretty uncool and makes no sense but it actually happens.
sorry if any of you were worried about me, im here. for now anyway, i lost interest in homestuck i must say, but welp… he is still a part of me, what can i say. [im roleplaying league of legends with my gf now]))
D==> I’m back.
D==> And not happy about it.